This isn’t meant to apply to anyone in particular, just a random muse. I’m finding that some of my creative side is coming back after a miserable hiatus.
This is pretty general so I’m sure that most people that have been a designated driver, exasperated significant other, drunk babysitter, annoyed friend, etc. can find something in here. I find it odd that when things like this happen, a lot of people have these really tough, mean thoughts. Then later the thoughts more than likely pass. But then you still feel guilty for having such mean thoughts in the first place. What if the frustration is warranted-where is the line to which you allow your mind to go?
(Be nice regarding length, stanza, and all that other poetry jazz. I don’t care, this is mine).
I Hate You (When You’re Drunk)
I’ve seen all of this before
And it’s always such a bore.
Existing as only half a person
I question if you’re even worth it.
Everything can go just fine
Then destroyed by just one time.
I can’t hear any more ignorant excuses
You refuse to see that you’re useless.
It’s making me become so mean
But you’ve no idea what I’ve seen.
Coldly watching you fall to the floor
I don’t want to do this anymore.
Gagging on your rancid vinegar stench
And how your hands find me a wench.
Baby you have no idea how much
I ‘m hating each and every touch.
You’re starting to speak slow
And turning into such a man ho.
Sickened by everything that you do
You’re drunk and I hate you.
Oh yes, everyone around us knows
And my humiliation can only grow.
I won’t be just like them and you
I’ve got much better things to do.
There’s only one way for me to feel
The only thing in this room that’s real.
Funny how simple things become complicated
And my disgusted hatred even more understated.
Even with eveyone telling me, insisting
But I can’t even get you to listen.
Lately I can only keep one thing straight
You give new meaning to the idea love/hate.
I want to be anywhere else instead
Especially when you tell me it’s all in my head.
I can’t tune out your idiotic fake laughing
I almost wish you never happened.
10/26/2012 original work